Dr Appointment II :)

So Hello,

Today I'd an appointment with Dr Law from Damai Specialist Centre in Kota Kinabalu of course.It's regarding this tiny tumor that I have on my back,the thing is this so called tumor is getting bigger time after time.Despite all the concequences I'm still going to have this operation tomorrow around 9.00am in the morning.Just to get rid of this shit,it costs me Rm 1000.Tell me about it?.I seriously hope that everything is going to be perfectly fine tomorrow.Terrified? a lil bit :) wish me luck! LOL

Stupid enough.

As i don't get you,it's getting harder each and everyday.

I'm pathetic yes you can call me that.

Having this "Positive" attitude defly not going to sweep the scars away.

I'm tired of saying"I'm okay" when i'm fucking not.Please don't turn me into cold blooded bitch again,cause im pretty good at it.

Why do I keep falling for bastards? Can't I just have an easy & smooth life?

.Come on karma you hit me hard enough, why don't you give me a fucking darn BREAK!,cause this "owh so TOUGH young LADY is FUCKING TIRED".

Dear guy,

Haven't you learned? to say things that you only fucking mean? cause when you don't,things not going to be "nice" to me.

Haven't you learned? that If you don't care,stop pretending like you are?! cause in the end I'm the one who going to deal with all the memories and stuff and the most sickening part is that its actually worth nothing but a 5cents to you while I'm breathing and living through it!

Haven't you learned? that it's a fucking sin to be lying through your teeth?!

Haven't you learned? Feelings are not an amusement park? that you can roll your dice and try your fucking luck in it?

Haven't you learned? TO LIKE ONE FUCKING NAME AT TIMES.There's always a reason why ,god doesn't give you TWO LOVING HEARTS YOU RETARDED IDIOTA.

Thanks.I'm stupid enough to think that little me can rock your FUCKING WORLD.

All I ever wanted is for you to be a nice guy,yet you can't even be one.What a shame.