I have found my unicorn!

Happy. It's a state of bliss that I can't explain.
I'm at my happiest state whenever I'm around him.
Yes cheesy, but cheesy-ness is so underrated.
I'm dancing in the milky way, walk like June and sing like May.
Everyday is full with wonderful ambiance.
If I had enough patience, If only I trusted God long enough,
I could have skipped all those dramas, jerks, and whatnot.
But like you, imperfect homo-sapiens, I was always in rush back then.
Battling with own hustle and bustle.
Picking guys like they are some kind of brand .
I was wrong.
But, I could never be wrong again. I'm certain.
Thanks to you, RUSSELL my lover,  homie, and friend, all wrapped up with a ribbon on it.
Thanks for reading me.

             " With your hands in my hands and a pocket full of soul, there's no place we couldn't go"

                                                   " Say I'm the one, cause you're a ten"

                                         " Baby I'm too busy being yours to fall for somebody new"

                                            " I don't know much but I'm certain bout this"

                                              " We raise the bet, cause you're the joker"

Inspiring :)

Quotes & Pictures that I <3-Nothing personel,I just feel like sharing :)

No story
sits by itself right?,let's get the bussiness going.Since I can't really do anything much at this rate & condition.Each and everytime I try to move myself,it feels like"owh My ribs are going to crack anytime soon" annoying much.I spent most of my time lying helplessly in the bed,which is a fun thing to do actually-ahh skip that :) NOW ,would like to share a thing with you guys-

10 Men that I would die for :D

Mr JENSEN ACKLES is <3 I'm positive,everyone has one crush that drives them nuts.I have a really really really massive crush on this guys and it has been like forever.I swear if he happens to be here in Malaysia,going to seat in a very front row just to see his pretty face.SCARY MUCH? :)

Little trivia bout this hottie -

Jensen Ross Ackles (born March 1, 1978) is an American actor. He is known for his roles in television as Eric Bradyin Days of our Lives, which earned him several Daytime Emmy Award nominations, as well as Alec/X5-494 in Dark Angel and Jason Teague in Smallville. Ackles currently stars as Dean Winchester on the CW series Supernatural

No 2.TAYLOR DANIEL LAUTNER is an American actor, voice actor, model, and MARTIAL ARTIST.Yes Yes yes,I'm a team JACOB.I'm not so into the "blood-sucker".And did I mention before that he's only 19! :)

No 3.Van diesel.I cannnnnnn't explain why-<3 :)

No 4.He's a complete sense and I've never seen a total nerd that this FINE :)

Right here at num 5.Wentworth Earl Miller,he's the hunk from american television show-Prison break-

No 6.Owh my my my -Jason Castro -he's like a pelican fly.He had me at the first note.He got the voice, the eyes,smile,hair and he got me goooood.

No lucky num 7.Familiar much? Well of course,he's a superman,everyone knows him :D -Tom Welling :)

The super yummylicious number 8 goes to Josh Harnett.Dangg,I have a thing for him ever since-forever?.Ladies,he'a a catch :)

9."There'll be no christmas,if I lose you baby"-BRUNO MARS-.His single soul could lighten up the street of loneliness.Couldn't help but falling for him and his voice :)

10.The perfect number 10,ahhhh this is Rob Kardashian :) .He has the most charming smile ever the one that you've been longing to see rightttt in the morning.

hye,guys :D

Hye,I'm sorry for not really telling-

The operation thingy went well,to be frank,yes it hurts cause I'll be lying if I say it didn't.But the pain is bearable-at least for now.Things that I hate the most is to keep up with the medicine,lord I hate em so much! :/ andddd till now. I'll be fineeeeeeee la guys,it's not easy to get rid of this cold hearted bitch :) ,plus that was only a small surgery.Thanks for the wishes btway! :)

Loves

-Adeline :)

Dr Appointment II :)

So Hello,

Today I'd an appointment with Dr Law from Damai Specialist Centre in Kota Kinabalu of course.It's regarding this tiny tumor that I have on my back,the thing is this so called tumor is getting bigger time after time.Despite all the concequences I'm still going to have this operation tomorrow around 9.00am in the morning.Just to get rid of this shit,it costs me Rm 1000.Tell me about it?.I seriously hope that everything is going to be perfectly fine tomorrow.Terrified? a lil bit :) wish me luck! LOL

Stupid enough.

As i don't get you,it's getting harder each and everyday.

I'm pathetic yes you can call me that.

Having this "Positive" attitude defly not going to sweep the scars away.

I'm tired of saying"I'm okay" when i'm fucking not.Please don't turn me into cold blooded bitch again,cause im pretty good at it.

Why do I keep falling for bastards? Can't I just have an easy & smooth life?

.Come on karma you hit me hard enough, why don't you give me a fucking darn BREAK!,cause this "owh so TOUGH young LADY is FUCKING TIRED".

Dear guy,

Haven't you learned? to say things that you only fucking mean? cause when you don't,things not going to be "nice" to me.

Haven't you learned? that If you don't care,stop pretending like you are?! cause in the end I'm the one who going to deal with all the memories and stuff and the most sickening part is that its actually worth nothing but a 5cents to you while I'm breathing and living through it!

Haven't you learned? that it's a fucking sin to be lying through your teeth?!

Haven't you learned? Feelings are not an amusement park? that you can roll your dice and try your fucking luck in it?

Haven't you learned? TO LIKE ONE FUCKING NAME AT TIMES.There's always a reason why ,god doesn't give you TWO LOVING HEARTS YOU RETARDED IDIOTA.

Thanks.I'm stupid enough to think that little me can rock your FUCKING WORLD.

All I ever wanted is for you to be a nice guy,yet you can't even be one.What a shame.

CLAUSTROPHOBIC.

This is something

to tell but ,not to boost.To begin with..I fuckingly hate elavator,escpecially jammed elevators.Yes y'all can laugh your ass off,but this is true.I used to think,I'm just another piece of insecure shit,but now tht makes sense.

EVER HEARD OF |CLAUSTROPHOBIA| ?

What is Claustrophobia?

often experiences great anxiety and difficulty breathing in small enclosed spaces and may experience feelings of panic or even have a fullpanic attack. Unfortunately as with many phobias, there is no easy description of claustrophobia.

The description of claustrophobia that is generally offered is an intense fear of being trapped or confined in small spaces. The fear is often focused on not being able to escape or not having enough oxygen.

They do their best to avoid small confined spaces such as elevators, basements or cellars, airplanes or even rooms with closed doors. Crowded spaces can also trigger a claustrophobic reaction as exits may be blocked and quick escape may be difficult.

Living and dealing with claustrophobia can be difficult and limiting as the individual often has to avoid certain situations and places. Working on the 10th floor of a tall building means taking 10 flights of stairs each morning to avoid the elevator, air travel may be impossible and big parties might be avoided. The good news is that as with other phobias, claustrophobia is treatable.

I knew there is something wrong with my head-at least.I'm just too busy to be thinking or even talking bout it.But Marlin's beard its only getting worse and NOW I can't even sleep with lights off.Imagine that? screw myself,pity my roomate she had to take her dear pillow and cover her face up.Listen,there's a major difference between 'being scared" and this symptom.I'm so fucked up.Not forget to mention I keep on feeling things for these past two two days.Holy,I'm not joking,this is not something I wanna joke bout.I can't.The worse part is others won't understand they probably think you only craving for shit attention and currently I'm just too fatigue to do major conference explanantion bout this.SKIP THIS.

This has been a demented ride ,

loads of assignments yet so little fcking time.

Doesn't matter thou,cause I'll be chucking my bag soon enough.

4 days left! I can hardly waittt.