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Quotes & Pictures that I <3-Nothing personel,I just feel like sharing :)

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sits by itself right?,let's get the bussiness going.Since I can't really do anything much at this rate & condition.Each and everytime I try to move myself,it feels like"owh My ribs are going to crack anytime soon" annoying much.I spent most of my time lying helplessly in the bed,which is a fun thing to do actually-ahh skip that :) NOW ,would like to share a thing with you guys-

10 Men that I would die for :D

Mr JENSEN ACKLES is <3 I'm positive,everyone has one crush that drives them nuts.I have a really really really massive crush on this guys and it has been like forever.I swear if he happens to be here in Malaysia,going to seat in a very front row just to see his pretty face.SCARY MUCH? :)

Little trivia bout this hottie -

Jensen Ross Ackles (born March 1, 1978) is an American actor. He is known for his roles in television as Eric Bradyin Days of our Lives, which earned him several Daytime Emmy Award nominations, as well as Alec/X5-494 in Dark Angel and Jason Teague in Smallville. Ackles currently stars as Dean Winchester on the CW series Supernatural

No 2.TAYLOR DANIEL LAUTNER is an American actor, voice actor, model, and MARTIAL ARTIST.Yes Yes yes,I'm a team JACOB.I'm not so into the "blood-sucker".And did I mention before that he's only 19! :)

No 3.Van diesel.I cannnnnnn't explain why-<3 :)

No 4.He's a complete sense and I've never seen a total nerd that this FINE :)

Right here at num 5.Wentworth Earl Miller,he's the hunk from american television show-Prison break-

No 6.Owh my my my -Jason Castro -he's like a pelican fly.He had me at the first note.He got the voice, the eyes,smile,hair and he got me goooood.

No lucky num 7.Familiar much? Well of course,he's a superman,everyone knows him :D -Tom Welling :)

The super yummylicious number 8 goes to Josh Harnett.Dangg,I have a thing for him ever since-forever?.Ladies,he'a a catch :)

9."There'll be no christmas,if I lose you baby"-BRUNO MARS-.His single soul could lighten up the street of loneliness.Couldn't help but falling for him and his voice :)

10.The perfect number 10,ahhhh this is Rob Kardashian :) .He has the most charming smile ever the one that you've been longing to see rightttt in the morning.

hye,guys :D

Hye,I'm sorry for not really telling-

The operation thingy went well,to be frank,yes it hurts cause I'll be lying if I say it didn't.But the pain is bearable-at least for now.Things that I hate the most is to keep up with the medicine,lord I hate em so much! :/ andddd till now. I'll be fineeeeeeee la guys,it's not easy to get rid of this cold hearted bitch :) ,plus that was only a small surgery.Thanks for the wishes btway! :)

Loves

-Adeline :)

Dr Appointment II :)

So Hello,

Today I'd an appointment with Dr Law from Damai Specialist Centre in Kota Kinabalu of course.It's regarding this tiny tumor that I have on my back,the thing is this so called tumor is getting bigger time after time.Despite all the concequences I'm still going to have this operation tomorrow around 9.00am in the morning.Just to get rid of this shit,it costs me Rm 1000.Tell me about it?.I seriously hope that everything is going to be perfectly fine tomorrow.Terrified? a lil bit :) wish me luck! LOL

Stupid enough.

As i don't get you,it's getting harder each and everyday.

I'm pathetic yes you can call me that.

Having this "Positive" attitude defly not going to sweep the scars away.

I'm tired of saying"I'm okay" when i'm fucking not.Please don't turn me into cold blooded bitch again,cause im pretty good at it.

Why do I keep falling for bastards? Can't I just have an easy & smooth life?

.Come on karma you hit me hard enough, why don't you give me a fucking darn BREAK!,cause this "owh so TOUGH young LADY is FUCKING TIRED".

Dear guy,

Haven't you learned? to say things that you only fucking mean? cause when you don't,things not going to be "nice" to me.

Haven't you learned? that If you don't care,stop pretending like you are?! cause in the end I'm the one who going to deal with all the memories and stuff and the most sickening part is that its actually worth nothing but a 5cents to you while I'm breathing and living through it!

Haven't you learned? that it's a fucking sin to be lying through your teeth?!

Haven't you learned? Feelings are not an amusement park? that you can roll your dice and try your fucking luck in it?

Haven't you learned? TO LIKE ONE FUCKING NAME AT TIMES.There's always a reason why ,god doesn't give you TWO LOVING HEARTS YOU RETARDED IDIOTA.

Thanks.I'm stupid enough to think that little me can rock your FUCKING WORLD.

All I ever wanted is for you to be a nice guy,yet you can't even be one.What a shame.

CLAUSTROPHOBIC.

This is something

to tell but ,not to boost.To begin with..I fuckingly hate elavator,escpecially jammed elevators.Yes y'all can laugh your ass off,but this is true.I used to think,I'm just another piece of insecure shit,but now tht makes sense.

EVER HEARD OF |CLAUSTROPHOBIA| ?

What is Claustrophobia?

often experiences great anxiety and difficulty breathing in small enclosed spaces and may experience feelings of panic or even have a fullpanic attack. Unfortunately as with many phobias, there is no easy description of claustrophobia.

The description of claustrophobia that is generally offered is an intense fear of being trapped or confined in small spaces. The fear is often focused on not being able to escape or not having enough oxygen.

They do their best to avoid small confined spaces such as elevators, basements or cellars, airplanes or even rooms with closed doors. Crowded spaces can also trigger a claustrophobic reaction as exits may be blocked and quick escape may be difficult.

Living and dealing with claustrophobia can be difficult and limiting as the individual often has to avoid certain situations and places. Working on the 10th floor of a tall building means taking 10 flights of stairs each morning to avoid the elevator, air travel may be impossible and big parties might be avoided. The good news is that as with other phobias, claustrophobia is treatable.

I knew there is something wrong with my head-at least.I'm just too busy to be thinking or even talking bout it.But Marlin's beard its only getting worse and NOW I can't even sleep with lights off.Imagine that? screw myself,pity my roomate she had to take her dear pillow and cover her face up.Listen,there's a major difference between 'being scared" and this symptom.I'm so fucked up.Not forget to mention I keep on feeling things for these past two two days.Holy,I'm not joking,this is not something I wanna joke bout.I can't.The worse part is others won't understand they probably think you only craving for shit attention and currently I'm just too fatigue to do major conference explanantion bout this.SKIP THIS.

This has been a demented ride ,

loads of assignments yet so little fcking time.

Doesn't matter thou,cause I'll be chucking my bag soon enough.

4 days left! I can hardly waittt.

Masterpiece of music|The strokes&Saosin|

I'm no fine chick,
but I'm here ,if you're looking for something real.

One thing bout them is ,when I thought I'm all alone,I have their music to mess around.I fancy they way they deal with words,expressions,feelings and stuff.It's surreal.Enough said.

I couldn't get my good head straight despite all the hard work that I've been putting in.A lil bit of disctraction maybe?. I'm in the middle of massive-choas .Wanted to finish off all my assignments,but at the same time-my laziness strikes-Its really gettin on my nerves.I don't know how to get rid of em.

S K I P T H A T.

by the way,I wanted to do "some talk" bout -The Strokes-
well if you,young fine gentlemen& Ladies don't know a thing bout em,ahh,suga ya get it badd.I mean,for realll,where have you guys been?! CAVE?

"When you come back, make sure you come back big”.

The Strokes are a five-piece band hailing from New York. They’re made up of Julian Casablancas (Vocals), Nick Valensi (lead guitar), Albert Hammond, Jr. (rhythm guitar), Nikolai Fraiture (bass) and Fabrizio Moretti (drums). I'm guessing that most of you will already know about The Strokes new album, but just in case you don't here are the details.

The album will be called Angles, has 10 tracks and is due to be released on 21st of March in the UK and most of the rest of Europe, March 22nd in North America and 23rd of March in Japan. The first single will be Under Cover Of Darkness, rumoured to be released 9th of February.

Angles is the best album the Strokes
have made since Is This It because of the stylistic depth and progressive
excitement in those crisscross guitars, the tightly wound rhythms and
Casablancas’ dry trademark croon.

-Rolling
Stone.

S A O S I N

I used to be their"die hard fan" but their presence in limelights somehow killed my interest.Why did most people strike up that kind of fancy?.It's not techically wrong,but its just don't seem right to me.If you don't get me or my way of thinking,no worries cause most people-LOST-too.

p/s: Anthony green if you hear me do somethin bout it,and your so called replacement boy,COVE REBER.He ain't worth that shit.

Born: 2003

California-based Saosin burst onto the post-hardcore scene in March 2003 with their explosive screamo-tinged debut EP, Translating the Name, on Death Do Us Part. For the recording, the band was comprised of vocalist Anthony Green, drummer Pat McGrath, guitarist/vocalist Justin Shekoski (ex-As Hope Dies), and former Open Hand members bassist Zach Kennedy and guitarist/vocalist Beau Burchell. The band's name comes from a Chinese proverb that means "small heart," as in love cautiously. Shortly after the EP's completion, Kennedy exited (going on to join Ashlee Simpson's band) to be replaced by Chris Sorenson, and since McGrath had been enlisted solely to play drums on the album, Saosin weren't solidified until that July with the addition of permanent drummer Alex Rodriguez (also formerly of Open Hand).

I'm not done-yet.See you guys soon!

hey my december.

It's hard to break the fences that we've made,or maybe I don't have enough guts to. I'm not gonna hush up my thoughts that have been constantly jogging in my head,it's tiring.

Having you in my life was the finest joyride ever.
It's a complete clause.Conversation+fussing=brawlin+hanging out.
It's a cycle always had been.You're my buddy.
The thing bout you was you know me well enough.
You read signs-my secret signs.
Hell,I don't know how you did but you were.
I'm losing my grips,my tracks&my mind.
Memories supposed to fade.
My conscience was screaming in vain, but all I ever did
was not replying any of your messages.Turned out freedom
was nothing but missing ya,
and here I am trying to erase my real weakness.
No ifs buts or maybe
I already wanted to move on ,moving on a different phase
,just-about-to.Until I saw ANOTHER YOU HERE.
LORD,you got me good.
SAME FRAME FACE,SAME BRIDGE OF NOSE,SAME POSTURE,SAME ATTITUDE,( thou, he don't even bother to know bout my existence).LOL.
I'm not becoming expectations.
I'm sorry if I'm talking crap but I really do mean well.
I'm sorry if my visual don't line up with my feelings .
My apologies if my physical exhibit doesn't represent me well.
My deepest apologies if I'm senseless,curious,delirious and don't take life serious.
Leave you labels lead with no vision cause somehow ,I still got your back.




"Someone Like You"

I heard
That you're settled down
That you
Found a girl
And you're
Married now

I heard
That your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things
I didn't give to you

Old friend
Why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me", I begged
"I'll remember", you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead,
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday
It was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise
Of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me", I begged
"I'll remember", you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known
How bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me", I begged
"I'll remember", you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead"

Never mind
I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
"Don't forget me", I begged
"I'll remember", you said
"Sometimes it lasts in love



by the way,I wish you the best ,I've seen your new shorty and she seems to be a nice warm girl :').She's a looker so don't waste your dime.Take care :')

"Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead"

TWISTED FACTS.

First and foremost.I'm not a newbie.

It's just that I kept on forgetting my own password.I'm not even in my 20's yet I tend to forget tonnes of things.Usually when I reactive my blog,there's certainly going to be massive big shit I'm going to write,but this time I think I'll pass.By the way,this sem had been a demented suffocate ride for me.Sometimes,I wanna give in but if I do those bastards gonna laugh their fucking ass at me,so I reluctant.But,I'm too fatigue to carry this whole pack of world alone.People are people and sometimes they change their minds.

*Sigh*

.Suga, this world ain't funny,and currently I don't have enough lame jokes to entertain you and your ignorance so could you stop showing your stupidity by making assumption bout the things cause what you hear might be only half of the story,or I think you should cross your fingers and say a little prayer to yourself hoping that what she told you was going to be factual fact cause if she ain't.You should confront a mirror and curse the figure in front.hey stupid orange,im talking bout you,DICKHEAD .*You know what I mean*.

Hey life,could you stop being so harsh to me?.I've been dealing with complete hell for these couple of days.I got a major problem with my tooth.Yes my fcking tooth.I'd sleepless nights.It's like a thousand needles poking into my skin-only worse.Heaven knows what it wants.*hush.

I CAN'T WAIT TO HOP ON A PLANE,14 DAYS TO GO.I'LL BE WINKING AT THE SKY WHEN I GET THERE- SOON.CHEERS.

p/s: I'm just god given name,it's very common for me to make mistakes I don't know bout you.